I’m stuck in an endless loop of indecision and uncertainty. I want to be great but I’m not sure how to get there. I need to be successful but I don’t know what route assures it. I like to do so many things but I can’t figure out the one thing I can dedicate myself to. I like to be free to be creative, to have the ability to express myself. I also need to be challenged or I get bored. It’s a complex problem. One to which the solution is not readily apparent.

I feel like these aren’t isolated feelings limited to just me. It seems like a great many of us are feeling this way and feeling like we settle for whatever allows us to survive. To be comfortable and have a place to lay our head. The things that used to guarantee a good life, going to college and getting a degree, seem to be the new ‘high school diploma.’ The bare minimum needed to get a job that pays a fairly decent wage.

On the other end of the spectrum, if you do get a higher degree than bachelors, they expect you to have so much experience. How is that possible if you just finished school and had your regular job just to fund school? Or if you are a younger person who went to school instead of the workforce initially? It’s an endless loop of unrealistic expectation.

Hence a great many of us feel stuck. Between trying to survive and wanting to pursue our passion. Yet being unsure of what our passion is because we are too consumed with wanting to survive. There is little room for experimentation because time is flying by. The more we wait to make a decision, the more we feel that we have wasted time.

I guess the best course of action would be to take a chance. Break the loop, try something, anything! You can’t have an idea of what moves you until you actually have a feel for it. Even if it’s just ten minutes a day of doing it. Just ask yourself what brings you joy. I’m still looking for that something. I hope to figure it out one day!


3 thoughts on “Stuck”

  1. At 32, I’m still in the same boat!

    As for having multiple interests and apparently not being able to stick to one path, I found tremendous help + reassurance from two books: The Renaissance Soul by Margaret Lobenstine and Refuse to Choose by Barbara Sher.

    I also like to remember that Rainer Maria Rilke quote:

    “Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

    Cheers, fellow traveler! 🙏

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